Feb 20, 2026 from Autistic As Fxxk Why I struggle to trust myself Content Warning: childhood trauma, domestic abuse, gaslighting After much self-reflection, I think I figured out what specifically traumatised me about my grandparents, to the point I became mute a...
Feb 06, 2026 from Autistic As Fxxk My focus for 2026: community building 2026 has been really overwhelming for me so far. (As I’m sure it has been for many of you as well!) Aside from everything that’s going on in the world, I’m still feeling destabilised over possibly ...
Dec 29, 2025 from Autistic As Fxxk Selective mutism? Situational mutism? No. I am a virtual mute. Every now and then, whenever I share my experiences with selective mutism online, I’d get DMs on Instagram like “Just a gentle reminder that ‘situational mutism’ is the preferred term in our commun...
Dec 24, 2025 from Autistic As Fxxk Do I actually have selective mutism? Content Warning: childhood trauma I was diagnosed with selective mutism at the age of four. It’s a label that defined me and explained my differences for most of my life (I only got an autism diagn...
Nov 05, 2025 from Autistic As Fxxk How systemic inequities lead to internalised ableism For a long time, whenever I was failed by a system in supporting my needs, I internalised it as proof that something was wrong with me. These weren’t isolated incidents but a pattern that reinforce...
Oct 29, 2025 from Autistic As Fxxk Impostor syndrome as a semi-speaking advocate Since starting Autistic As Fxxk, I’ve received messages from younger Autistic Singaporeans saying they look up to me and see me as a role model. I’m incredibly flattered and honoured that people se...
Oct 22, 2025 from Autistic As Fxxk Coming to terms with having medium support needs For a very long time after getting my autism diagnosis at age 20, I assumed I had low support needs. I was originally diagnosed with Asperger’s when that was still a thing and thought that meant I ...
Sep 11, 2025 from Autistic As Fxxk Special interest infodump: a history of my celebrity crushes Content Warning: childhood trauma, domestic abuse, sexual misconduct In a previous post about the connection between my selective mutism and childhood trauma, I wrote: I used to love singing at a v...
Sep 01, 2025 from Autistic As Fxxk Exploring my inner world through The Sims Content Warning: childhood trauma, bullying As part of my trauma healing journey, I’ve been exploring Internal Family Systems (IFS), mostly through reading the book “Self-Therapy” by Jay Earley. Fo...
Aug 25, 2025 from Autistic As Fxxk What I would like to see in a job training programme for Autistic people After sharing about my horrific experience with a job training programme for Autistic people in Singapore, I’ve been thinking a lot about what a truly supportive programme would look like. Here are...
Jul 08, 2025 from Autistic As Fxxk Learning to scream like my rock idols After writing about the childhood trauma that caused my selective mutism and my horrific experience with a job training programme for Autistic people, I’m left with this deep rage about everything ...
Jun 18, 2025 from Autistic As Fxxk My horrible experience with a job training programme for Autistic people in Singapore Content Warning: ableism, infantilisation, inspiration porn I’ve mentioned a few times before that I had an awful experience with a job training programme for Autistic people in Singapore. I talked...
Apr 23, 2025 from Autistic As Fxxk From ChatGPT to finding my community I know generative AI is a controversial topic now and I’ll probably get some pushback on this post. I’m not asking you to agree with me, but please read this whole post before forming any judgment....
Apr 15, 2025 from Autistic As Fxxk Victor Perez and Ryan Gainer should still be here. This Autism Acceptance/Awareness Month, please remember our neurokin who lost their lives to systemic racism and ableism. Rest in peace Victor Perez. And I still haven’t forgotten Ryan Gainer, who ...
Apr 07, 2025 from Autistic As Fxxk How my selective mutism is connected to childhood trauma (part 2) Content Warning: childhood trauma, religious trauma After sharing my last post about the connection between my selective mutism and childhood trauma, more memories and realisations have continued t...
Mar 19, 2025 from Autistic As Fxxk How my selective mutism is connected to childhood trauma Content Warning: childhood trauma, domestic abuse Hey everyone, I know I haven’t posted anything new for some time. I’ve been doing a lot of inner work to understand myself better and try to heal f...
Feb 04, 2025 from Autistic As Fxxk How I feel about Chinese New Year as an Autistic person Chinese New Year is my most dreaded time of the year as a Chinese Autistic person. The holiday is my ultimate Autistic nightmare. I’d usually visit my aunt’s place, where all my relatives would gat...
Jan 02, 2025 from Autistic As Fxxk My 2024 reflections Hey y’all… I know I haven’t written any new post in a while. My grandma was hospitalised in late October (around one week after my birthday) and passed away in December, so I’ve been very preoccupi...
Oct 29, 2024 from Autistic As Fxxk It’s not your fault: a letter to myself Here’s a letter I wrote to try to show myself some self-compassion. Dear Rachel, It’s not your fault that you whisper instead of speaking at a normal volume. It doesn’t mean that you’re stupid or d...
Oct 06, 2024 from Autistic As Fxxk I asked ChatGPT to psychoanalyse me Update (July 2025): Important Context on AI, Mental Health, and Accessibility This post describes a personal experiment from 2024. I’ve noticed this post has been getting more traffic recently, and...
